Why is my heart filled with sadness?
Why do the tears fill my eyes?
I’m blessed, and so thankful
Your love and mercies consume me
But this world is full of so much sorrow
Not just in my own little space, but far beyond.
I try not to be sad when I hear of the senseless killings
And all the crimes big and small
That daily affect some that I know
And some that I’ll never know
My life goes on, filled with joys and disappointments
Laughter and tears will come and go
Like a see saw…ups and downs
I feel for others who are hurting
I want to get off the see saw, close my eyes,
And let your light illuminate my closed eyelids
But I will stay until you call my name
And say it’s time to go home.
I will not fear the madness that surrounds
I will rest in the knowledge of your love.
July 20, 2012 at 1:09 pm
Reblogged this on My Life Uncut…Almost.
July 20, 2012 at 1:52 pm
Oh how true – Anne – I think we must be on a similar wavelength – my post today is on a similar vein – I will post it on here – Great minds think alike!! :)
Love this poem – very touching :)
July 20, 2012 at 3:53 pm
Thank you Alex. I have a feeling many are on this wavelength after yet another horrible shooting rampage in Colorado last night. Will look forward to reading your poem. ♥
July 20, 2012 at 3:55 pm
Yes a terrible event indeed. It quite takes one’s breath away.
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July 20, 2012 at 6:00 pm
I stayed outside and scraped the house and started to put a new coat of Brown paint on where Turquoise now is so I would not have to listen to one more word of this tragic event in CO. Sick with saddness. :(
July 20, 2012 at 8:36 pm
I didn’t turn on the television myself. I saw it online, and stayed away from the coverage of it because I get too upset. I checked online a couple of times for updates, but didn’t want to just sit and watch constant coverage of it. There’s just been so many times of that, and it tends to overwhelm me with the constant coverage.
July 20, 2012 at 8:46 pm
me too. I hate news when they beat it to death to sensationalize it and hold views
My house thanks me for being strong
:)
I am glad you were OK today any classes this weekend or back to the grind Monday?
July 20, 2012 at 8:49 pm
No classes, but lots to do. Will have my granddaughter of course, and have some practicing and reading to do for classes, lots of housework here and church on Sunday.
July 20, 2012 at 9:46 pm
Well as long as you get some FUN TIME in it is what will keep us sane. lol I could run a PT place myself with all I have had done on me after the wreck PT and OT
:)
I know you are enjoying your grand daughter :)
July 20, 2012 at 9:53 pm
I’ve hated having so much studying to do the first week she’s been back from visiting her dad. But next week should be better. I don’t have another test in MSA until the 30th, and that’s the hardest one right now. I’ll still have homework and I think I’ll have a test next week in my massage class. But they’re much easier than all the technical stuff about the body in MSA, and I think that’s the only exam I’ll have next week.
July 30, 2012 at 8:18 am
good luck on your TEST today!
July 30, 2012 at 9:47 am
Thank you Eunice!!
July 30, 2012 at 9:55 am
:)
July 30, 2012 at 10:01 am
Trying to quickly catch up on emails, and the blog and FB and all. Have lots to do…just got home about an hour ago from pet sitting. Hope you have a good Monday Eunice.
July 30, 2012 at 1:26 pm
I did house work,Yoga,shopping for BLT’s tonight and now to paint or scrape more of this house oh and SUNTAN at the same time and a little Frisbee no wonder I hurt lol
July 30, 2012 at 1:29 pm
LOL
July 21, 2012 at 4:19 am
((hugs))
July 21, 2012 at 4:21 am
((((HUGS)))) back at you, my dear friend. :) Thank you! ♥
July 21, 2012 at 5:57 am
Thanks so much I will rest and get photos of the sea and Indians today.
It looks so dark and rich now Brown I went with flowers will stand out against it. Dad would be so proud.
July 21, 2012 at 6:55 am
:D
Don’t forget to take some pictures – sounds like the perfect backdrop for some stunning flowers :)
July 21, 2012 at 7:02 am
I think so :)
When I bought this place in 1988 it was faded brown then in late 90′s I painted it Turquoise it was surround by huge Pines and just so woodsy now it has so much sun except for the east where I plant all my shade lovers. We sit in the sun from 10 AM till sunset now so flowers have been all consuming I will be sure to post my progress The Ruggosa (SP)Roses look spectacular near by I had to trim them so I could move about without constantly being stabbed lol I hurt so bad from that 2000 wreck this will be a long process but so worth it!
July 21, 2012 at 7:11 am
Sounds like a work in progress and thoroughly rewarding :)
July 21, 2012 at 7:20 am
It is now that I got through the worst of things now it is time to show my apprecation :)
July 21, 2012 at 7:40 am
Let’s hope you can sit back and enjoy :)
July 21, 2012 at 8:43 am
Thanks
July 21, 2012 at 11:25 am
There’s nothing quite as awesome as planting things in the dirt and watching them turn into beautiful artistry. :) It’s very therapeutic. I used to have beautiful gardens at my house here in Pensacola. I would go cut flowers and make arrangements and give them to people sometimes, and even had people actually come up to the house to tell me how pretty it was. Someday I’ll have that again. Ted and I had a garden, but he mostly planted and tended it, there in Atlanta. He loved doing that, and it was sort of his thing. It was really pretty too…taking a really ugly spot along the drive at those apartments where we lived and making it a really pretty, eye-catching garden.
July 21, 2012 at 5:32 pm
I think that is what some of us are meant to do. either for our own hearts and souls or to make the world a prettier place to make people see their efforts are worth every moment. I can not wait till new paint is on and I start myself and area for an English Garden in memory of my Nana and her Mom my Great Grandmother.
July 21, 2012 at 5:35 pm
What a wonderful dedication to them!
July 21, 2012 at 5:39 pm
Thanks I know I have angels who watch over me I feel them pushing me to head in the right direction and to stay safe I hope it is all the ones who I have loved that left this world to early.
July 21, 2012 at 5:41 pm
♥
July 21, 2012 at 5:49 pm
Thanks
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July 21, 2012 at 5:34 pm
I think that is what some of us are meant to do. either for our own hearts and souls or to make the world a prettier place to make people see their efforts are worth every moment. I can not wait till new paint is on and I start myself and area for an English Garden in memory of my Nana and her Mom my Great Grandmother.
Your garden areas sound they were gems too Any photos of all your blood sweat and tears? Probably snap shots :) I have a whole deacons bench with every photo I took that still holds a memory for me just in case I start to loose mine :)
July 21, 2012 at 5:41 pm
I actually don’t…only my word and that of my daughters and neighbors who had seen it. I wish I had taken photos of it. It was so beautiful. After David died, I had just let it all go. Just gave it all up. We were separated at the time that he died. My dog died within a month of David, too. And 9/11 happened the Tuesday after we had buried David. My daughter was having a very difficult pregnancy as well, and with her father’s death on top of it, she was having a very hard time.
I remember later though, when I started just letting it all go, my next door neighbor would come knock on my door and tell me, “Your plants are dying…you need to water them!” I told him, “If it bothers you, you can water them.” I just didn’t care anymore at the time.
July 21, 2012 at 8:34 pm
When I gave the bank my home after my divorce from a very abusive man neighbors I heard came and raped the yard of all my beautiful plants Karma sucks :) I am back and they are no longer friends if they ever were. We go into survival mode it is ok you can just go and look at my hundreds of flowers :) I am glad you all got through it as well. Life throws so much at us we shut down then we come back stronger than ever with the help of Gods Love
July 21, 2012 at 8:47 pm
People can sometimes be very cruel. But then, they can other times be very, very wonderful too. I think sometimes we tend to focus on all the bad things, and the good ones get lost along the way. You’re right…all of it makes us stronger in the end. And my faith has become much stronger through it all too. One thing I’ve learned is that God never leaves, and He loves with a BIG love, through it all. :)
July 21, 2012 at 9:00 pm
For a very long time I thought he had stopped loving me now I know he was always there I was just in so much pain I lost sight :(
July 21, 2012 at 9:04 pm
I think many of us get to that point at one time or another. I know I questioned His love at one time myself…even His existence. But both His existence and love have been proven to me far beyond what I could have ever imagined now. It’s kind of funny how at the end of those ‘spells’, we wind up seeing how He was working in the situation all the time. And the end result will turn out to be better than we could’ve imagined…though often not at all what we were ‘thinking’ that we wanted. :) Like the praise song says, “Our God is an awesome God!” :)
July 21, 2012 at 9:08 pm
So true! People hear my story now after so many years I never said a word and now they get CHILLS it makes them feel as if they too can find a Happy Ending
He has to be he created each of us and we all have a purpose lol who knew what I gave out each day in a rig was HOPE and LOVE I was just working my butt off lol
July 21, 2012 at 9:19 pm
LOL…yeah, that life wasn’t the way we’d conjured it up in our heads either. But there were certainly blessings in the midst that I can see anyway. And while we didn’t make the kind of money we thought we would (or close), we had what we needed. Not what we thought we needed some of the time though. :)
July 21, 2012 at 9:25 pm
:) I have been blessed from the day I was born and because I made a choice for another to have life I took so much abuse from them and myself glad I can see where it is I took that path of self hatred as God is Love and I am surrounded by it once again I always had what I needed Anne always was a good provider but I always said I could live in a shack as long as it was full of love all the rest is just STUFF
July 21, 2012 at 9:27 pm
That’s so true. Less is more, most definitely.
July 21, 2012 at 9:29 pm
I have given up EVERYTHING to save myself , it is a much nicer place to be then buried under clutter from ones heart
July 21, 2012 at 7:04 am
I think so :)
When I bought this place in 1988 it was faded brown then in late 90′s I painted it Turquoise it was surround by huge Pines and just so woodsy now it has so much sun except for the east where I plant all my shade lovers. We sit in the sun from 10 AM till sunset now so flowers have been all consuming I will be sure to post my progress The Ruggosa (SP)Roses look spectacular near by I had to trim them so I could move about without constantly being stabbed lol I hurt so bad from that 2000 wreck this will be a long process but so worth it!
I also want to put in an area for an English Garden with all the Older type plants that always having them look stunning seeds I can grow I am a wiz at that! :) Who knew :) I spent all those hours every day in a rig and only got to see what others had in their yards as I whizzed by :)
July 20, 2012 at 5:28 pm
Beautifully written Anne…Diane
July 20, 2012 at 5:31 pm
Thank you Diane. ♥
July 30, 2012 at 1:27 pm
Good luck again on test!
July 30, 2012 at 1:31 pm
Thank you Eunice! I all day studied yesterday for the one tonight and the one tomorrow night. Will review some more before tonight’s test again, and then will really study hard for the MSA exam tomorrow night some more.
August 20, 2012 at 9:35 pm
I hope I answered this and you passed it I found it under the unread tab
August 20, 2012 at 9:45 pm
I did good on last week’s tests. The exam tonight however…for the first time I’m not even certain I passed it. :( He hasn’t graded them yet, so not sure when I’ll find out…might not be until next week.
August 20, 2012 at 10:01 pm
Sorry was it because you were sick or waiting on your sick baby? Hope you passed even if by the skin of your teeth lol I know you have a lot on your plate but pat yourself on your back for challenging your self!
August 21, 2012 at 7:12 am
I didn’t study yesterday. Had read the chapter and done the questions in the back of it. Those questions may have been somewhere in the chapter, but none of us in the class knew that we got more than 2 or 3 correct out of all the questions. We all guessed on the rest of them. :) Jen, my eldest daughter was the one who was home sick from work yesterday. Grace was at school (my granddaughter) and there was confusion about her bus. I live with my 2 grown daughters who share an apartment together, and my almost 11 year old granddaughter right now.
Thank you Eunice! Thankfully, the confusion about Grace’s bus…I think…is resolved now. LOL…we’ll find out this morning!
August 21, 2012 at 7:20 am
Well at least you have company around you that is nice. Now did your husband pass away or is Ted a son? Brother
I hope you have a much better day that was some nasty rain that slid off into the gulf headed towards my OLD HAUNTS LOL
August 21, 2012 at 7:28 am
My first husband passed away in 2001 of a brain aneurysm. Ted is my 2nd husband, who I married in ’06, and from whom I’m separated now. He is the one who drove the truck for awhile after we were married. I have a son too. He lives in Virginia. LOL…my life can be confusing I guess. :) Thank you Eunice!
August 21, 2012 at 7:44 am
Well I saw TED and photos used a lot but cool Ted was the part time trucker lol Sorry you are apart now some of your poems make more sense to me
Sorry I am sure you love him so much they say 2 nd ones are rough that is why I never re-married :) first boyfriend helped me get over my ex for 8 yrs then me time and now back for 8 yrs with the love of my life from back when I was just 14 and Mom said it was PUPPY LOVE see I new what real love even back then :)
August 21, 2012 at 8:18 am
That’s wonderful Eunice!! :D
August 21, 2012 at 8:20 am
:) guess it happens that way sometimes
August 21, 2012 at 8:33 am
My mom and dad were married over 50 years when he died. About a year later, she got a phone call. He asked, “Jeanette?” She said, “Yes?” He said, “Do you know who this is?” She said his name, having remembered it from back in the early 40′s. It was a guy she had dated before she met my father. He had asked her to marry him back then, and she had said no. Then she met and married my dad…he joined the Merchant Marines and met and married someone else. His wife had died about a month before my father had, and he had looked her up all those years later through Mom’s sister who was still living in California. They ‘courted’ over the phone about a year, and then he went to Texas to see her. They wound up getting married in April ’99. She unfortunately died a little more than a year later, but it was really a cool story about a rekindled romance. :)
August 21, 2012 at 11:11 am
nice story Anne
I know I am so happy with him in my life fairy tale ending
August 21, 2012 at 11:46 am
:)