Originally posted on My Life Uncut...Almost:
I have this deep seeded need to understand things. I’m always saying those words, “I don’t understand.” And they’re usually followed by the words, “but I trust God.” That third word in the title of this…the one in the middle, I guess I’m realizing that I haven’t quite reached. I have to a degree, but if I’m still consistently saying those words…”I don’t understand”…I think it indicates a lack of acceptance on my part.
That said, I think there are things that I’m not supposed to just accept. You know the Serenity Prayer, “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.” That prayer, I think, is one I should be lifting up every day. There are things I shouldn’t accept, but should change, whether they’re outside circumstances, or things within me that I need to make changes with. But as for that acceptance of things I don’t understand it’s very difficult for me.
I can see God’s hand in my life through both the good times and the bad. I can also see His hand at work in the lives of loved ones. His love is truly amazing. I have seen it in amazing ways He has worked out impossible situations…I have felt it in the midst of great grief. It’s real, and it’s immense.