I have this deep seeded need to understand things.  I'm always saying those words, "I don't understand."  And they're usually followed by the words, "but I trust God."  That third word in the title of this...the one in the middle, I guess I'm realizing that I haven't quite reached.  I have to a degree, but if I'm still consistently saying those words..."I don't understand"...I think it indicates a lack of…