I will never be as good as you in poetry, even if I tried
I will never be as brave as you with leadership, for that was your life
You taught me about the seven seas,
You showed me love through your eyes
You calmed the storm in me
You brought me to life
And yet we had to say goodbye, before the final goodbye
But still you clung to me, bothering me with check up calls and texts
You hung on to me even when I cared less
You called me a rock star, you did
You loved me, and us, young blood
You showed me how to lead differently
How to dream big, and do deeds
You set the pace
And yes I will miss you now that you’re flown
I will cling to teddy bear Josh every night,
For you have ruined my chance
Ruined I say with this kind of love
I wish I had loved you more
I wish I had given more, given all
I wish we had not been afraid to defy the odds
But I can never know why
All I can do is cry
Take care of my brother, will you?
I know you will, just like you did with Daniel
We’re going to take care of Tosca and Mom,
But who will take care of us now?
Say hullo to Lynda for me
I love you, I love you so much
For although I lost my faith with Joseph’s death,
I found it with yours
Epilogue: I dated Josh back in 2010 from June to August. It was beautiful, his kind of love was pure and undefiled. We did not work out because he was not ready, and neither was I, and for other reasons known to the two of us that I shall not disclose. I never stopped loving him, and that faithful friend called time healed the pain of leaving him. I pray to God that he found true love within the years after we broke up. He wrote one love poem for me in French, but never had the courage to put in on facebook. “The Blue Petal” is the poem he wrote for me, after my nick name. Rest in Peace sweet Tobin Sahib Joshua Ojok.
Further note: I decided to share it on here this places is an inspiration to me. Also I am working on a book filled with his Poems that I will be giving out free copies of in the beginning of October and would like to share with the community here.