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No Fear

 

Its difficult to imagine, but I had to try!

 

When I was young, I had very little REAL fear. My fears were more the “does my hair look good, how does my tan appear, is this dress sexy? Than true fear as I feel now -old enough to know better and ALSO old enough to care.

 

As a mom, still young thinking grandma-(beebee is my grandma name) and daughter of an elderly father who is in poor health, fear has taken on a new meaning.

 

I will always fear for all of my old one’s safety-I lost a teen very suddenly at age 15. What if I did not have the fear that his loss filled me with. I think saying that I truly wouldn’t give a damn if I worried that those I love would be hurt would be a start. I would get in my car, with only a little “luggage”, drive to a secluded beach, with no way to communicate with anyone. I would lie under the stars and write what filled my soul by the light of a group of candles-all of different heights and colors.

 

No fear-I have no desire to “hurt myself”-been there, done that, but maybe worrying some people might be fun. I could scream, cuss, become inebriated if I wished, rid myself of the constant pain that is my life. If I were not such a “mom”, always worrying, then I could go to places I have only dreamed of, deserts, mountains, oceans and live in a cabin in the woods. Perhaps I would be young, acquire a sexy lover and spend my nights and days in a fantasy world where “what people would think” or ‘getting caught would not matter to me.

 

I can’t imagine having no fear-I doubt if I could conceive of it. Interesting thought, though-who knows what our minds might do without this in-born trait?

 


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No Fear

Prompt-“If I had no fear”   

It is very hard to imagine-i had to give it a try!

When I was young, I had very little REAL fear. My fears were more the “does my hair look good, how does my tan appear, is this dress sexy? Than true fear as I feel now -old enough to know better and ALSO old enough to care.

 

As a mom, still young thinking grandma-(beebee is my grandma name) and daughter of an elderly father who is in poor health, fear has taken on a new meaning.

 

I will always fear for all of my old one’s safety-I lost a teen very suddenly at age 15. What if I did not have the fear that his loss filled me with. I think saying that I truly wouldn’t give a damn if I worried that those I love would be hurt would be a start. I would get in my car, with only a little “luggage”, drive to a secluded beach, with no way to communicate with anyone. I would lie under the stars and write what filled my soul by the light of a group of candles-all of different heights and colors.

 

No fear-I have no desire to “hurt myself”-been there, done that, but maybe worrying some people might be fun. I could scream, cuss, become inebriated if I wished, rid myself of the constant pain that is my life. If I were not such a “mom”, always worrying, then I could go to places I have only dreamed of, deserts, mountains, oceans and live in a cabin in the woods. Perhaps I would be young, acquire a sexy lover and spend my nights and days in a fantasy world where “what people would think” or ‘getting caught would not matter to me.

 

I can’t imagine having no fear-I doubt if I could conceive of it. Interesting thought, though-who knows what our minds might do without this in-born trait?

 


Sunshine Award

Today’s post is a little different but I’m sure you will like it.  I was nominated by the beautiful http://theenduringmind.com/  for the Sunshine Award and I am here to share and nominate a few blogs that I love as well:

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The rules are very simple for the Sunshine Award:

1. Feature the logo in your post

2. Link the person who nominated you.

3. You all have to check out the blog  http://theenduringmind.com/  it’s the most  inspirational and informed website that I have seen in a while. It takes you through journey’s and you might find  out who you are as an individual.

4.  Write 10 pieces of information about yourself

5.  Nominate ten fellow bloggers “who positively and creatively inspire others in the blogosphere.”

6.  Leave a comment on each bloggers’ blog and let know about the award!

7.  Leave a comment on each bloggers’ blog and let know about the award!

Well, I did 14 facts yesterday. Who’s ready for 10 more?

Let’s get this started,  here are ten interesting facts about me, want to know  more join the site

1.  I hate to stand in long lines

2.  I love to write poetry and short stories

3.  I don’t have any kids but I only have twin names picked out.

4.  When I was seventeen I wanted to go to the London school of make-up

5.  I have a fascination with London, Paris and Japan

6.  When I was in high school I took a black and white photography class, I love taking pictures and sometimes being in front of the camera.

7.  I love to cook

8.  My favorite foods are Thai, Italian, Sushi and Seafood

9.  I’m going through traumatic events that happened within the last year.  It’s not easy but I take one day at a time.

10. I love to watch fashion shows, learn about the latest make-up trends and try new things.

Here are the 10 blogs and bloggers that I nominate for this wonderful award:

1.  Anastasia  http://www.glamorable.com/  This blog caught my attention and I fell in love with everything beauty.  She has everything that you can imagine to be on this site.

2.  Michelle http://www.blushingreader.com/  If you are having a hard time picking out a book to read then here is your place to go.  Reviews on tons of books.

3.  AJ Alexander http://www.ajlive.com/ This is the number one entertainment site.  Best singers, great management, sexy models and a lot more.

4.  Pachet  Burson  http://theenduringmind.com/ Her site is very inspirational with a lot of things that make you think about your life.  She has so many creative things going on your always wondering what she is going to come up with next

5.  Candace Corey  http://www.candacecorey.com/ One of the best make-up artist in the world. If you don’t know how to apply make-up this is the place to come

6.  http://projectwaking.wordpress.com/ Everything you ever wanted to know about Lucid Dreaming.

7.  20 Lines a Day  http://anexerciseindiscipline.com/  Go to this site to get a variety of  writing and see things from different views.

8. Laura Bloomsbury  http://telltaletherapy.wordpress.com/  She has lots of interesting things on her site and I know you will enjoy it.

9. Rosy http://mistikkal.artistwebsites.com/ Variety of some excellent paintings .

10.  http://whocouldknowthen.wordpress.com/ ex-painter turned story-teller.  HIs words are passionate with a calming effect.  Read one story and you are hooked for more.

Congratulations to al the nominees.

Until  we meet again,

Karrington Kenendy

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Christmas Memories

Originally posted on Living and Lovin:

Daily Prompt: Memories of Holidays Past
What is your very favorite holiday? Recount the specific memory or memories that have made that holiday special to you.

Christmas Memories

Christmas used to be so special when I was a little girl growing up with my two brothers.  We had the best tree Dad could find but one year we truly had a very cool tree.  I never knew my parents were cool, I mean really COOL. Yes it was the sixties and that Christmas we saw them set up a funky metal tree.  It came with a color wheel.  Do you know what I mean?  This was something that ran on electricity and had different colored film on it and it would turn our tree Blue then Red I can’t remember all the colors on the wheel but I can tell you our tree was very different compared to the other homes. …

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How to Make a Difference

She is 86 years young. I grew up to this amazing person, my aunt, youngest sister of my mother.

Since I was a toddler, I would walk up the hill to her house, plant flowers with her, watch her can vegetables, help her work in the garden, and help decorate for Christmas.

When I was a young adult, trying to survive a disastrous marriage, be a single mom, work and go to school, she made sure my kids and I had clothes, food, toys. Even today at her last siblings funeral, she smiled at me and said, “Maybe someday I can make up to you all that you have done for me.”

I smiled and quietly whispered, “If I were to live a thousand years I could not begin to make u for all you have done for me.”
I think often of what the world would be like if it were full of people like my aunt. She listens, she cares, she is generous, considerate, loving beyond all reason. I envy her thoughtfulness, honesty, willingness to help, or even to be kind when she disagrees.

If ever there has been a person who is “my precious. Is is my aunt, who is like a “sister”and friend as well. I have shared my joys and sorrows with her, helped her with her ailing elders, and enjoyed visits to her house several times a week, if not more. When I thin of the word, “beautiful”, her face comes to mind. She is the kind of person that makes life worth living on my worst day, a true treasure.

Thanks for being ‘my precious’, Aunt Phib!

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