“my heart grieves” she says
and i ask
“why does your heart grieve?”
she answered
“because i know that the love
we used to share has died…it seems
all that’s left in its place is the memory
of how it used to be…a memory
of how it used to feel…”
and the only answer i could
give her was my silence
and a guilty stare into the space
past her…but then i took her hand in mine
and felt her fingers in between
the spaces of my own…it didn’t feel the same…
and i said
“indeed…the love we once shared
has died…buried beneath
painful memories and broken promises…”
she looked at me and i looked away
to hide the tears…and the silence
that followed became our last “goodbye”…
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Infidel On Your Knees
THE INFIDEL’S BROKEN PROMISES
Oh Infidel, look what tragedy you have wrought
because of your selfishness you gave no thought.
Well intentioned, the ‘fixer’ went out to heal,
dispensing ‘love’ and a mental self haven for the
neglected, the lonely, for his own appeal.
The hearts soared, the minds healed, the bodies
hummed with the release of restraints.
But, there was a problem of paying the piper. Of
coming back to Earth, of seeing the wreckage one
paints.
‘I never meant to…’ ‘I am so sorry’ is of no use
given the devastation and abuses.
To loved ones here and over there, excuses
are offered up, as I stare into a cup. My excuses
ring hollow in light of the grief.
What comes of all this pain, of the dear hearts?
On my knees, begging for redemption, I see
the sorted parts. I see no relief.
I see what I have wrought, I see what I carried
all this long while. The little boy inside striving
to find comfort, but not realizing the harm
from all the conniving.
Love, respect, compassion are admirable,
but never enough of an excuse for the Infidel
fixer seeking to skirt the unbearable.
A power looks down to guide one back from the
abyss. A wreckage strewn along I cannot miss.
Redemption not to forget, but perhaps someday
for all, a higher bliss?
Forgive me
