Do You Remember the First Time? (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
With everything I can’t remember , a random memory will( it seems) rear it’s being at the exact time as I didn’t need to remember it… is it getting older…Hmmmm I’m not so sure…I’m thinking we lose certain memory’s to maintain balance ..with that said (just my opinion)…I read some of my old posts (I was in a very dark place for a while) but I never really remembered some of them …really weird …, I have also been dreaming some things from the past , dredging up old pain …. I don’t know why….I wish it would stop tho….any way I’m done rambling for now …Have a good night all…peace
It is the year 2013. Joshua looked like your average thirty three year old, but he was far from ordinary. Joshua had proclaimed about three years ago that he was the son of God, and that he was to teach others the word of God. He quickly found others willing to follow and spread his word. But society did not believe he spoke the truth, and was corrupting others with his lies. Joshua however did not let the others deter him from his beliefs, and his flock continued to grow.
His teachings and “miracles” that he could perform amazed his followers. The bond between Joshua and his followers grew stronger, and in turn society ostracised and victimised him further. Joshua only wanted to spread the word of God, and teach others how to live their lives so they could be with their Heavenly Father after death. He gave direction to those lost, hope to the forgotten and meaning to those ill.
But Joshua did not teach the “truth” that others had inferred upon society. Therefore society viewed him as a dangerous man, using cheap tricks and whimsical ideals to lure followers to his flock. His was not a religion, but a cult. A danger to the very fabric of the society we knew. There was only one solution … a public trial and defamation.
The media hosted his trial in a series of intolerant documentaries and obscure interviews with unidentified ex-followers. The claim that he believes himself to be the son of God mockingly repeated, just so we have no doubt of his ‘guilt’ and lack of credit. Holy leaders are interviewed with silent laughs that paints their faces, as they politely dismiss the ‘lies’ of Joshua and we nod willingly.
Joshua remains silent throughout his trial. The church and society find him guilty, and drag his beliefs through the dirt until those that follow are no more than blind sheep. Publicly humiliated before finally hung out to dry in front of the world to see his ‘lies’ and that they are right. It is the year 33AD.
stars are falling all around us , read in the news there’s another wrecked school bus ….. I’m at sorts today . I think to much sometimes ….why is the world like this . My life has consisted of pain of some kind or another , why did I endure this rather than just give in and live a simple life .
Some days …..hmmmmm days like today I search for things I know I can’t find. I have no idea why these days exist ….I need to push by this feeling I’m having today….I’m writing this in hopes to find associations for some of my impulse’s or ways of thinking …..It’s hard someday’s to reach out to others, I hope people understand why I’m like this , not thinking I’m avoiding for some other reason.
The physical portion is getting worse for me , pain ….real pain either side effects from medication or just pain catching up to me from past injuries or aging pains . my abdominal cavity has gotten worse ..I may need to be admitted into the hospital for them to find it…..
“These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)