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Night

Off and on I have been trying to work on Palindromes, which I find so-ooo difficult. Not sure if this works at all, but I offer it as my poor attempt.

Shadows

Fading dreams

in deep black.

Dark shadows appear

then sleep

comes when least expected.

Time passing

reading

insomniacs all reading,

passing time expected least

when comes sleep.

Then appear shadows

dark, black,

deep

in dreams.

Fading.


5 Liners – A Round

 

Brain.

Thinking machine

Not working today.

Busy week end, tired.

Sleep.

 

Sleep.

Refresh me.

Not working today.

Too much to do.

Work.

 

Work.

Exhibition coming.

Not working today.

Running around in circles.

Stop.

 

Stop.

Do nothing?

Not working today?

Need off switch for

Brain.

 


Insomnia

My heart is racing, tap

tap, tapping on the moon

this night is a bore

the quiet stillness

I abhor

forget the blinds

up in the sky, pull

pull them down

around, around

silly night, you cannot serenade me

seducing me into your spell

I fell, I fell into my mind

to forget to sleep in time, not mine.

Forever – ’til the end

only this silliness

to contend

around, around

forever and more

the quiet stillness

I abhor.

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Depression – A Lack of Faith or A Disease? You Decide

I know it has been a while since I posted here, but it isn’t because I’d forgotten about it or that I was blowing you guys off. In a nutshell, it has been because I’ve been struggling with a bout of depression, and getting just one article out for my main site was a really hard thing to do, and getting two out was near impossible.

Lots of Christians seem to find the subject of depression uncomfortable, largely due to the fact that they see it as merely an emotion that people have when they aren’t living by faith.  Anyone struggling with it will tell you, the emotion part is just a symptom of the disease. The heart of it goes to the physical misfiring in the brain and can no more be controlled than a broken arm or having a heart attack.

I used to just go to bed for a few days, sleeping away the tears and sadness, and while I did stay in bed more than I usually do, I didn’t sleep. Damn insomnia.. :) But, I made myself write once a day, and I think because of that, the episode didn’t last as long as it usually does.

Anyways, sorry I neglected you guys. Hope you will forgive me.

Love,

Bird


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Losing My Mind, One Cat-Shaped Piece At A Time

I’ve had a very stressful night. First, even Ambien couldn’t knock me out, so I was up all night. Then, at about 4 am, I heard a cat crying outside, and lo and behold! my strictly in-doors cats, bought for me to help with Empty Nest issues,  had escaped the house through the dryer vent hole!! Little Jerks.

I was able to catch one of them, Milo,  quickly, but the other was nowhere to be found.

Sebastian. Not caring at all about how worried I was. Schmuck.

Yes, I wandered through the dark looking for him in a robe and slippers like a weird woman acting in some bad commercial. Little jerk was mocking me…I can feel it. After 3 hours — 3! – Sebastian decided to wander his little butt home, thus ending my nightmarish worry.

As I was sitting here, relief washing all over me that both of them were safe and sound in the house again, it occurred to me that I’ve just freaked out over two house cats. I don’t freak out over house cats.

Milo. Not the Brave One, thank God.

Tomorrow, my son is heading to Texas to see if this is a move he wants to make. With my youngest in Japan, that leaves only one of my chicks here near me. I think that’s why I was flipping over my cats. They’ve come to represent my children in some weird way….. Which I’m wondering if that might be a bit much, even for me. I mean, if they keep doing stuff like this, will I potentially lose my mind??

I need a nap. Exhaustion is shading this way too heavy for me right now.

– Bird

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