The sea like silken water with its triangular-peaked hills rising in front of me, neither relaxed or in a hurry, flows at a speed I wanted to experience. I paddled frantically, and suddenly, in a breath, the sensation changed from a pulling through the water to a force pushing onto the azul cliff crest. Then there was the perfect rush down, the fall, a thunder of water behind, a liquid slicing turn along green-blue scenery, a coal-less steam-powered train ride, the only energy nature’s.
In that breath, that ride, I remember that I too am part of this flowing life, and I shout out, thankful, singing, a prayer from within. Air rushes past, nothing else can matter, my body and mind are consumed by a few seconds. A delicious sensation, even the salty taste and scent as I inhale, smiling.
Seaside, I walk up the beach in adoration of nature. My soul feels like my body felt, like a rock being momentarily launched, skimmed over something deep and alive. And at the end of the ride, at the end of the moment, I sink into that which I love so much.
Though I am not aware of any great love
beaming down upon me, I hope they are there
My lost son, my mother , her parents,
They speak to me, hear me when no one else does.
I have searched, believed, dreamed, loved
and seen all of that stolen from me.
In misery, drowning in tears, I have lain,
thinking of you, longing for your touch.
Oh, Holy Spirit, one whom I should trust
I often wonder where you are, near, or far
Do you watch over me while I suffer?
Do you not interject yourself in earths troubles?
There was a time when the majesty of your works,
the beauty of the forest and flowers of spring,
carried me to a place of pure delight.
Now, all I do is wonder what I did to make you leave.
Nothing can bring back what was stolen from me.
I try to find comfort in the winds, the sea,
To find you again, but I cannot see beyond the clouds.
I reach up, longingly to find only emptiness.
All you must do is reach down as I reach up,
as you did once and suddenly withdrew.
I hear the winds power, the majestic clouds.
But i want you, and can never ever have you here again.